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8/29/07 0 Comments"Stray- No regrets 'cause I've got nothing to lose"
The bell rings and everyone flocks outside to hang out for the little break we have between second and third period. I walk out from the Tech building and right to my friends.
I see him first. I walk over to them and put my bag down. Not making any special attempt to get his attention, I just stand and say hey to some friends. I walk to him and hugg him.
Bliss.
Sweet. Sweet. Bliss
God, we are a funny two. We talk as he holds me in his arms and laugh. I burrow my head in his neck playfully and he laughs. I look at his eyes, even though he wears the shades, I know he's looking at ME. We kiss. Kiss. Kiss again. Hehe. I nibble his lip-peircing. He almost gasps- he loves it! He wears a Black skin-tight T-shirt. I immediatly touch his bicep and he flexes. I go CRAZY! GOD! He has such SEXY muscles!!!!!!!!! When I even touch him- however so-slightly, my brain goes haywire.
We get lost in each others eyes again, and kiss. Kiss.
Bliss.
Kiss again...
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8/23/07 1 Comment"..My Fear...Its holding me stillborn.."
I watch him from the Darkness. He sits in a circle Candles everywhere All around him. His hands moving. Like the flow of water. He summons me. I flow to him Weightless like air
"My fear (loser) - it's holding me stillborn My fear (come on) - I'll never be again (don't fear) "
I stand before him He closes in on me. He opens my Heart. Destroys my Mask. He wrapps his arms Around my weak body.
"Thinkin' of the times when we were one (mmmm) And the music that was just begun And I don't know, really cant see how we ended up sep'rated, separated in this world of illusion "
A Kiss. So warm. We are Enraptured in the Bliss of each other.
"And now we're left in a world of illusion "...
Thinkin' of the times when we were one.
His lips are enticing As he curls his hand around the back of my neck His other hand on my back Holding me to him. His touch is soft But so very firm.
The Kisses feel warmer On the brink of fire. His lips on mine wrapp me in his world. Where there are trees and snow in Desserts, And where Reality is the Illusion...
"..And now I'm lockend in your World of Illusion"
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8/20/07 2 Comments"...When in doubt, eat a cheeseburger.."
Dude, hehe, I get onto my blog-site-thingy, go to the chatroom, and WTF?!?!?! TEHRE ARE AT LEAST 19 FRIGGING USERS in there! Yeah, he hasn't come on yet, but hehe, I told everyone that I get a kick out of the idea that he could be watching the chatroom right now...I'll report later... Ta-Ta!
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8/17/07 1 Comment"I still got your face painted on my Heart..."
Well, todays Friday. I didn't write in my blog yesterday 'cause I didn't want to and I was also too tired.
Thursday was the Sunset Farmers Market again. I was at my dads shop from around 8 am, all throughout the whole day. When 2:00 rolled around, I grabbed my lawn/beach chair(lol) and set it right outside to just watch everyone set up. The first Sunset Farmers M that we had was three or two thursdays ago. I had just walked around and decided to get an airbrush tatoo. I was bored, but I really liked the atmosphere. RIGHT after I had payed for my Tat, an Oceanside Reporter came up and did a written interview, It was cool. She asked me what I liked about this afternoon farmers market and I told her that I liked the atmosphere and the fact that it was local and that you could just hang out. I like that. It gives the feeling of being able to hang out, have fun, shop, and just....ionno....chill.
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8/14/07 0 Comments"..and then ther was- HOLY SHIT! FLYING PEPSIS!"
....Yes.... As you can see just by the HEADINGS, I can be extremely RANDOM! So be prepared to duck and cover for your safetly. ANYWHO!....
Yeah. My day was boring, I get to work, turn on the tv 'cause Im bored as hell, and my show wasnt on!!!!!! Then I remember that today was the DOG marathon....
I was able to breathe.
So, after about watching DOG for two fricking HOURS, with NOTHING to do, and no one needed me to do any work, I was stuck there with NOTHING to do......DAMNIT! I'm out of Pepsi, by the way....Oh yeah, and I'm sitting there and my phone rings. Its my ex bf calling to tell me he's coming to my work to "harasse" me. Not REALLY, but just to hang out.
It was really great to see him again, because when we brokeup, we BOTH broke it off. And when we DID, I made him SWEAR that we'd always be good friends, and we are still! But, when he got there....
....No offense to him, he was getting kindof annoying. He kept on dropping slight hints that he wants me still and kept on bringing up times we had, and he EVEN said that he MISSES KISSING me!
Yeah, like you COULDNT know that he was trying to get somewhere with me again.
But.... I did miss him too. Its just.....
I dont want to date him again. My advise, and its been PROVEN MULTIPLE TIMES before; If it doesn't workout the FIRST bloody time, it sure as HELL won't workout a SECOND time.
Plus.....
Grr. I've been having problems with aNOTHER guy! Don't you HATE it, when you REALLY want to be with someone, and they fool around with you and stuff, but then the party gets RUINED as they tell you that they need to meet up with- ......sighs
Ok, lets just say that he's been fucking around with YOU AND another girl.... And he acts like nothings fucking WRONG!!!!!!!
Well......yeah. That AND the fact that you can't stop THINKING about their lips on yours and then you remember that he's screwing around with someone ELSE and you grimace at the thoughts of whatever they could POSSIBLY be DOING to each other when your back is turned or your not with him.
THAT is my OTHER problem....
So, I figure, that I say, "SCREW IT! I QUIT DATING!"
Yes. I've decided that I'm not going to date anymore until AFTER I get out of HighSchool. I figure that it will be like going into retirement! And if someone wants to date me, HE'S GONNA HAVE TO WORK FOR IT! And he's gonna have to pursuade me to 'come out of retirement'.
....I just hope I DON'T meet anyone during the next two years....
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